Be WiTh Me

I used to think that I have a wonderful family. But as time goes by, things started to change and everything just go so wrong. Because of one person’s fault, everyone else has to suffer. Now, I ended up living in misery…. To speak up, I get scolded. To remain in silent, I felt so tortured. To go home, I feel so disturbed. But to remain outdoors, I have nowhere to go. Peacefulness seems like a total stranger to me now, never to be able to get in touch. Communication breaks down, unhappiness aroused, tiredness entangle me. The only person which I can still talks to at home is only my cat. Isn’t that sad? Oh man….. Can someone help me? And when will I ever meet the person of my life and ring happiness to me………?

In Feb, both my hps got stolen at my work place at Plaza Singapura. Oh…. Please don’t have the idea that you are safe just because you are next to Istana cos obviously its not! It has been a month and there is still no news even though there is a CCTV footage. Oh well….. Its not that serious a case so what do you expect from the government sector?? Then just last night, I got into a little accident at Handy Road. This bloody cab driver from Comfort (blue) did an illegal U-turn to the taxi stand at Cathay without signaling nor look out for vehicles traveling out from Plaza Singapura and I happened to be that ’suai’ rider! I was just right in front yet he didn’t see me at all! I had to jammed break in order to avoid crashing into the taxi and ended up falling off my bike. Guess what? That bloody briver didn’t even know and can continue to pick up passengers from the taxi stand. I was lucky that I was not injured and hence I ran after the taxi. All he said was he is sorry that I fell and that he didn’t see me and don’t even know where the hell I came out from. I was on a straight road and he can say don’t know where the hell I came out from. On top of that, he didn’t even bother to get down from the taxi to take a look. WTF! KNN! It was at the same time that I noticed that the taxi’s windows are tinted black and there is black curtains at the passenger sitting area’s windows. I couldn’t see who was inside the cab nor see through to the other side. That explains why he did not see me!!! To make thing worse, I was not offer any help by any people who witnessed the whole accident. Singaporeans are just so lack of sense of righteous and so self-centred!!! Or should I say, selfish! Then came the authorities. Call LTA, TP, Comfort all no use. I am just so f**king ’suai’. Everytime other people landed me into an accident, I am always the one losing out. What? Just because I am a female?? Bloody hell!!! Curse you damn drivers. May you rot eternally in hell!!!!!

Bust you f**king thief. How dare you steal my handphones right behind my back ta Plaza Singapura while I was at workon 12.0209. Damn you! I cursed you right to the point you took both my handphones. May your hands and feet rot as days goes!! May you get chocked to death eating the food you buy from the money from selling my handphones!! And may you f**king rot in hell upon your death!! Listen up, I am F**king cursing you from now till you drop dead!!! And to let you know, you have been caught on so many of the outlet’s CCTV and I have already sent my handphones’ IMEI no to the police. I pray that you sell the hps fast and get busted!!!!

Just a few months ago, I was being posted out of my comfort zone. Well guess what? Just last Friday, I am back to where I started. When I received the news, I had a mixed feeling. What was it? Firstly, I am already used to the hell weather at P.S. Secondly, I am back to where I had left only because I am needed to revive the sales which I used to achieve. Thirdly, everything at my comfort zone has changed; especially when I don’t have my funky staff with me anymore. Arrghh….. Without a fun environment, everything seems so boring. To make thing worse, the damn receptionist at my comfort zone is still there!!! No music, no funky staff. It will be yet another challange for me to reinstate my comfort zone back to how it used to be and as for P.S, its all up to the management to bring in more attractive products!

A lot of things have changed as time goes by. People come and people goes. Some get closer while some just drifted away from the crowd. Ever wonder why people don’t stay who they are and where they are? Oh well, cos greed is in every human. Once they find something more interesting, they tends to forget what they used to have and those whom were there to support them in the past. Some people may feel that its normal to look forward to new things and new people which may be true but never forget those whom have been there for you while you were down and out. And please do not think of them only when you need a favour from them….

Today is the day where everything came to an end. Though I had already prepared for the worst, was still unable to take it when I heard the news. 5 years…. Its gonna be a long long wait. No one knows what will happen in this 5 years but I really hope that everything will just go smoothly from now on. Though initially I didn’t really feel anything but subsequently, the sad feeling just slowly creeps up on me. Its gonna be hard but I hope everyone will be strong.

It was raining cats and dogs this morning when I was out to the bank at Somerset. With me was a big umbrella in my hand. While I was waiting to cross the road to the bank, a man in his 40’s tap on my shoulder to ask if I could give him a lift across the road. I was glad that I could help. After I came out from the bank, I bumped into a visually handicapped  Malay auntie who was trying to find her way in the heavy rain. Initially, a lady who was working at a stall near by tried to help her. But because she was working then, she asked if I could help. Without a second thought, I agreed even though I have to get back to work. Its my first time helping a visually handicapped person so I was a little nervous. I know I didn’t do a good job but I was really glad that I could help. In order to make the auntie feel at ease, I tried to establish a conversation with the auntie.

Auntie told me that she wanted to go to Centre Point where she worked and she had came all the way from Bukit Batok. But because it was raining, she had lost her way. Hence, I assured her that I would bring her to her work place. But before she went to work, she told me she wanna go Mc Donalds to buy her lunch. So I brought her there.  In her pocket, she took out some coins to pay to the crew at the counter after ordering. I  helped her to pick up the amount she needed to pay. Leaving Mc, she told me to bring her to level 1 and from there, she would go up to level 3 herself. I didn’t bear to let her find her way there on her own, so I escorted her all the way till the door step. Auntie works at a foot massage centre. She thank me and wish me have a nice day.

The feeling is so great cos I get to help someone who is in need of help. People out there, please render help to those who need it. What you have done may not be great, but it will definitely brighten up someone’s day. Moreover, good deed done will one day bring good fortune.

And to those slackers out there; If a visually handicapped auntie can get a job to provide for herself, I don’t see why you can’t. So wake up and stop slacking!!!

I can’t remember when was the last time I took a public transport. But its definitely a long long time. Well today (11.11.08), I took a bus and transferred to a train to work. Ask me why? Cos my brother wanna go down to town and he said he wanna go the same way as I do. Must be thinking I could have give him a ride on my bike right? No way! Cos he still dunno that I have a bike!! Ha ha…. Anyway, the sky was drizzling then so I just gave up the idea of riding to work. The journey was still alright. Not too bumpy nor too long. I guess its still not that bad to take a public transport once in a while.

For some reason, I was out of my comfort zone and ended up in hell…. To make things worse, people keep barking at me for this and that when I don’t even have the resources that I need. Everything just sucks! Well, its ok. I shall endure for now. Let’s see who will have the last laugh.

At times, I always find out things which no one has the intention to let me know. However, when I brought the truth out, people still tries ways and means to continue twisting it. I really feel very sad…. It used to be like this in the past and it is still like this now. Maybe I should just turn and walk away from now on….